John 12-18- Does the Holy Spirit live in Me?
Have you ever wondered if the Holy Spirit truly lives in you? I have! I mean....I am guessing he does...after all Jesus says he does. We read about that this week in John 14:17b, "But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you."
Yet, I get self-reflective at times and wonder if he really does because, I question if I exhibit the fruit of the Spirit in my life (Gal 5:22-23). I may exhibit some of them some of the time, but never all of them all of the time. And I certainly don't exhibit the Spirit by speaking in tongues or with prophecy (1 Cor. 12:4-10) at my weekly church service! In addition, when I first heard the word of God, I didn't start speaking in tongues and praising God as those did in the household of Cornelius (Acts 10:46). My conversion was quite uneventful in comparison.
So, what confirmation do I have that the Holy Spirit lives in me? Well, the answer was in our reading in that same section I first mentioned, chapter 14!! I love when God answers my questions, in such a personal way!! This is what he told me through the reading, on how I can be sure the Holy Spirit lives in me,..... “you believe in me, so stop wondering!”. I'm talking real belief (not like the belief the demons have), life-changing belief. These are his actual words, "The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you." (14:17).
This is how we know the Holy Spirit lives in us, not by exhibiting every gift that can be given, but just the fact that we believe. The rest of the world doesn't or can't believe, because they don't have the Holy Spirit.
"On that day (for the disciples it was on the day of Pentecost, for us it was the day we started with true belief), you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them." (John 20-21)
The proof that the Spirit lives in me is my belief, not in the ability to speak in tongues, prophesy or have peace at all times. My belief is my proof, period! I can stop wondering.