We finished the Gospels!!! Now on to Acts....
I always feel so unsettled when I read about Judas. Matt. 10:1 says, “And he (Jesus) called to him his twelve disciples and gave them authority over unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal every disease and every affliction.”
Today we read Peter saying, “For he (Judas) was numbered among us and was allotted his share in this ministry.” (1:17)
“..(Jesus) show which one of these two you have choses to take the place in this ministry and apostleship from which Judas turned aside to go to his own place.” (1:24-25)
So, Jesus called Judas, yet Judas turned aside to go to his own place. Hummm…🤔
I say this leaves me unsettled because there is an unexplainable mystery here. I like to figure out mysteries, but there are some that I just can’t. The mystery of God’s sovereignty and Man’s responsibility is one of those that just can’t be figured out with our human brain. Some denominations try to explain or stick to one side or the other of those two options. Yet, today’s reading shows both in action.
Peter says, “save yourself from this crooked generation.” (2:40) and it also says, “And with many other words he bore witness and continued to exhort them,.. (2:40)
Both these verses imply a human responsibility to decide.
However, we also read, “Jesus, delivered up according to the definite plan and foreknowledge of God.” ( vs.23), implying God’s sovereignty.
My heart actually aches for Judas. He had very opportunity to see Jesus for who he is/was. Yet, the choice was still his to turn aside. And that’s what he did….😖 Even though it was predicted that Jesus would be betrayed, Judas is still responsible for his decisions.
I ache for people I know today who are doing the same thing, but as long as they have breath in their body, they can still turn back. It’s such a shame that Judas killed himself. He didn’t give himself the opportunity to be restored like Peter had been.